Dec.30.2011 at 6:55 am | Alix B. Golden
2011
The word BLOG!was left on my Facebook wall. Jewel, you asked for it…
I’ve been quiet lately or should I say my mouth has been more still. My mind has been active, screaming words, reflections.
This time last year I was trying to absorb an carve everything about Mama so my memories would always be fresh. I was trying to cope with her last days and prepare myself for the future. I realize now that you just can’t prepare yourself for a life without a parent. You just completely underestimate how much you need them, even after you think you’re all grown up.
Her death makes all of the good things that have happened this year bittersweet… Although there is a part of me that I was motivated by her passing and her stubborn spirit keeps me moving forward.
There are people that used to be a big part of my life that I’m no longer close to. I miss them… And I’m tired of missing them.
2011 has taught me that there just is never enough time to enjoy the people that really mean something to me, so why do I continue to waste minutes that I can never get back? Why?
With this year, I’m saying goodbye to my fear of reaching out and letting go and hello to familiar faces…
“2011 has taught me that there just is never enough time to enjoy the people that really mean something to me, so why do I continue to waste minutes that I can never get back? Why? ”
Indeed! I was just saying to my girl that we hadn’t heard from you (on the blog) in a good while. Blessings to you in the new year. Let your heart be your voice.
Jei
*waves at Jei
I’m still here…Thanks for thinking of me…
Love this post, Alix! I too, and feeling similar sentiments as I realize it’s been two years since I saw my over 70 Mom. Not because I don’t want to-time, work, life gets in the way. But you’ve made me see that 2012 must be the year I do better with that. thanks for the reminder! ~True
70 years old? That’s such a blessing!
Thanks for this post. I too must learn the lesson of making the most of each moment. You are in my prayers and I wish you a prosperous new year!
I hope that means a desert castle is in your near future.
You’re always on my radar, Em!