Apr.5.2010 at 6:45 pm | Alix B. Golden
Waiting Instead of Walking
If there is a long line at a store, I will put whatever I have back and leave the store.
A long line at an amusement park? Forget it!
Don’t tell me you have something to tell me, but you’ll tell me later. I can’t handle it!
I am impatient. There I said it. I admit it. It’s 125% true.
I will walk around people that are walking slow in front of me.
When I’m out at dinner, I want my check as soon as I push my plate away from me.
I don’t even like to wait for my cakes to cool before I spread frosting over them.
I said I was impatient, right?
But when it comes to being patient with someone I’m in love with…sigh…I exercise more patience than anyone would ever know I was capable of. I often surprise myself…
I am patient when a swift kick in the ass would probably be more effective. I hear explanations and refuse to see them as cop outs. I wait, when I should be walking.
I don’t know how many times I’ve looked back on relationships and wondered: What made me stay so long? Why was I so patient? What made me stay? What outcome was I hoping for?
You ever been there?
Oh I’ve been there big time. After it was all said and done all I could think about was why I didn’t realize so much sooner. You mentioned something really important though. You were in love. It’s okay to be patient. Not to get all preachy but…1 Corinthians 13:4
Love is PATIENT, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
But love is not one-sided either. “You can’t put someone elses feelings before your own” <<sound familiar. Sit back and think what it is you're patiently waiting for. Is there promise of a better tomorrow? Will it continue? I don't have patience unless it involves love of kids so i understand. But if you're gonna wait on someone they have to be worth the wait. More importantly, love will only wait when you believe that the relationship will truly last.
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Although my lifelong impatience seems to have subsided some these last years, I know I can be overly patient in love.
But what I wanna know is — are you referring to your current relationship? I can only hope not, but then what else would have spurred this?
Hope you’re alright, Puppy!
XX
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I’ve always been impatient, that virtue has never been one I possess. When it comes to love for some reason I have more than I probably should. The biggest exams is my first love, she was everything I ever wanted and completely wrong for me. I loved her with a fire that seemed to never burn out until eventually I got burned. The sad part, to this day when I speak to her she still gives me butterflies.
We’re a lot alike in this sense. I am very impatient but my first lesbian relationship I gave and gave so much and had so much patience. I waited, I helped, I listened, I offered guidance, I urged, begged and pleaded and then waited some more. When the whole time, I should have walked. I look back and can only laugh at my stupidity. My ill spent time and energy. I should have walked…I should have ran. Fast. And never looked back. But I was patient…at a time I should have expressed my needs and if they weren’t met, stop there. I wasted so much time. Then again….not sure where I’d be now had I not gone through it.
I’m impatient about a lot of things, but relationships are not one of them. I love the feeling of being in one so that may have something to do with my general reluctatnce at giving them up easily. If I evaluate the worth of a relationship and find it fully deserving then there is no question, but like someone else already said, it takes two to work either way. That’s always been my saving grace. I tend to attract women with the patience of saints, seriously. I admit that I have been damn lucky to have women who not only saw the value in me, they saw the value in us. Sometimes being patient pays off and other times it seems to be all for naught in the end, but I think we’ve all been there and our emotions have run the gamut because of one primary ingredient; love. When you dig a little deeper it’s easy to see that one of the main attributes of falling, being and staying love is patience. We can learn to be patient just from being in love and wanting it bad enough. The other person has to want it just as bad. We wait because we love hard. We wait because we’re sensitive. It’s how we are made and I doubt we have much choice in the matter after all.
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