Jan.11.2010 at 10:18 am | Alix B. Golden
The Lil Monkey – Part I
We met rather randomly. A string of people between us. I interacted on twitter with other people that knew her, but she was never online. When she popped up, I spoke. I wanted her to know that I supported her movement. She responded in a DM. Which led to more DMs, a little flirtation and her phone number.
I remember calling Tami and leaving a frantic voicemail about how she had given me her number. We had exchanged a few texts by that time. I was excited to like someone. I wasn’t excited by the fact that she was in NY. Why couldn’t I be excited by someone local?
She went to my blog and I had recently written about being sentimental. Her first text to me, she asked me to write her a letter about myself and mail it. She included her address. Such a simple thing, but she had my full attention.
From the very beginning, she wanted to learn me. She read all of the posts here and moved on to the posts on wordpress. I had mixed emotions about her reading my posts. I wanted her to know me, to know where I’ve been so that she could understand where I am now…But at the same time, the last time I was interested in someone that had access to my blogs, they held by past against me. I kept waiting, praying that she wouldn’t find something among all of those posts that would make her change her mind about me. It never happened. All she did was ask for more to read.
I remember a conversation we had one night. I’m not sure how we got to talking about my mistrust of other people’s emotions. I told her I didn’t always know what it meant when people told me they felt about me. I didn’t trust them to know what love was or for their meaning to match mine. I remember her telling me to just be around her and I would know how she felt about me.
When the time came for a visit, I was hoping things would be as easy in person as they were on the phone. I was hoping we’d be able to laugh together, that we’d be able to lay together, that we’d have chemistry, that we’d be officially together by the end of my visit. I knew I was in love, but I kept my feelings to myself. I wanted to be around her, to tell her in person, I wanted to know that the feelings were reciprocated.
When I landed, I turned my phone on & answered a few texts from my friends who were just as excited as me. I text her to let her know we had landed. She was already there waiting on me. We talked as I approached baggage claim. Unknowingly, we started walking towards each other. I started smiling when I saw her. She wrapped me up in the warmest and tightest of hugs. I didn’t want her to let me go and she held me like she never would.
Awww — more more!
Keep writing please……
I think I needed to hear that. That sometimes these type of relationships can be a start to something genuine and good. Good Luck and of course were for more!
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I am experiencing something similar. I cannot wait to read more!
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I too, had a similar experience. It started innocently online and now, we cannot go to bed without talking to each other for hours. We’ve met once and that weekend was the most fun I’ve had in many years: a movie, dinner, watching television in bed and laughing. That was a few months ago and it was as easy and smooth in person as it had been online for the last few months. I can’t wait to see her again! And definitely want to read more of YOUR encounter, Alix!
awwwwww shucks! its getting HOT in here! gotta love it! so happy for you missy!!!
Okay! I think I’ve got this format licked here, as my bed is cooing sweetly, suggesting that I should have been cuddling lonely pillows hours ago!
Love the encounter, Alix B.! So descriptive and raw with a sweet honesty, as usual. Am forever enthralled at how lovers meet, bow to the vibrant emotions that connect them from the moment GO. It’s like the Universe lines up to bring your heart’s content, and hers simultaneously.
That, my blogger friend, is letting life live you!
Like the others, from The Flying Mermaid to Tami, I want to sink my teeth into more, and I mean that literally…more entry!!!!
I had a similar experience, meeting her online, falling hard for her in the IM’s and e-mails and midnight calls, until we met, shared a meal, held hands and…guess I’ll lay out with the rest on the bed of my blog.
Hmmmm.
She’s reconnected, momentarily, I think.
Hi, Imani! Nice to see you here! I hope you caught Alix’s interview on BlogTalkRadio! As you know, she was AMAZING!
Paz, luz y amor a todas,
TheSiren
Ooops! I just read that you caught Alix’s BlogTalk interview, Imani! Yeaaaaah!
Hola, Flying Mermaid!
Heard lots of great things about you! Am going to visit your MySpace blog home soon.
Paz,
TheSiren
CONGRATS hun!!!
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